Peace comes From Within: Know your Past

My peace comes from within but it also tears' at my skin. Howling let me in, why won't you play with me. Discipline I lack walking on a child's path. Angry, afraid with no patience to do the math. My chord laid flat but I disobey the calm. Still currently my actions crash the waves. Constantly devotee in search finding the bottom. Empty, dark, yet at the top.